Screenshots

An ode to 1649 screenshots of 11th class notes that I never opened to study, 55 screenshots of my self written poems that I deleted  from my secret poetry instagram account and uncountable screenshots of quotes I relate to but don't post because people won't care... But also, screenshot like memories in my heart.

13/12/2019, Friday

INTRO:

I was watching Dear Zindagi on Netflix today. I first watched it several months ago, was quite obviously impressed. But these days I had this sudden urge to watch it all over again. Maybe because I too am someone who took therapy. I realized I was looking for someone like Jehangir Khan, 'Jug', in my therapist. And I am disappointed. Wish I could find someone like him but movies aren't real life, mere inspirations.

He said this one line 'Jab hum apne aap ko achchi tarah samajh lete hai... toh doosre kya samajhte hai, it doesn't matter... not at all.' 

The social media addict in me wanted to capture it and post it on my insta. Chuck Netflix we can't take screenshots. But this thought came to me, SCREENSHOT.

How often do we take screenshots? Every hour, in my case. I am so done with this habit of mine.

Your case? 

Don't lie.

Atleast one per day, I can bet.

Kisi dost ke saath hui ladai ho, jo apne dusre dost ko ghante bhar mein type karne ke bajaye jaldi se batani ho.

Kisi random insaan ki bewakoofi ho, jo kisi ko hasane ke liye bhejni ho.

PUBG pe chicken dinner ki screenshot nahi li toh ghanta PUBG khela hai tumne.

Insta pe scroll karte hue agar kisi relatable quote ki screenshot nahi h tumhare phone pe, toh tum ghanta philosophical ho.

Zoom pe teacher ke lecture ki screenshot na li ho tumne toh tum se zyada intelligent ni h koi.

Accha kisi ki weird si insta post ki screenshot leke apne dost ko na dikhayi ho, toh tumhe stalking ni aati.

Apne favourite actor, singer ya celebrity ki photo ki screenshot na li ho toh ghanta fan ho tum.

Apne life ke har uss moment ki screenshot lete hai hum jo hume hasata hai ya matter karta hai. Iss hope mein ki baadme dekhke yaad karenge aur hasenge ya roenge.

Life has its own way of taking screenshots too. Kabhi aisa hua h ki koi baat ho rhi ho and suddenly ek purani memory yaad aajaye. Ya blank space me stare kar rhe ho aur koi aisi baat yaad aajaye jo dil pe hit karti ho.

Maybe our mind stores our fond memories like screenshots. Thankfully, it's advanced and shows them to us on its own.

Cricket sunke bachpan mein batting ke liye ladna aise yaad aata h jaise Sachin Tendulkar ki tarah khelti thi. Hamesha umpire bana dete the kyunki sabse chhoti thi. 

Jab koi bolta hai ki doodh mein bournvita mila ke pii toh yaad aajata hai kaise Nana ke yahan roz ek litre doodh pii jati thi. Arrey Sachchi mein. Nana bolte the "Iske liye toh doodh ka tanker mangwana padega". Ya kaise doodh peete hi turant neend aajati thi. Isliye maa subah 5 baje uthake doodh pilati thi. Taaki fir soke 7 baje school ke liye uth saku aur school mein neend na aaye. Main bachpan se weird hoon pata hai mujhe.

Love quotes ya romantic songs sunke apne crush ke kisi moment ki yaad na aaye toh ghanta crush hai vo tumhara. At worst, apne ex ki yaad toh aa hi jati hogi.

Accha insta pe chappal maarne waale memes dekhke apni maa ke kisi ajeeb se daantne ke dhang ki yaad nhi aayi, toh tumne maar ni khayi kabhi. Meri maa daant-te time mere har reply ko repeat krti hai. I swear mujhe jitna guilt galti karne ka ni hota, utna unki daant ke beech reply kar dene ka hota hai. 

Playground dekhke football/cricket ki yaad ni aayi, toh please jaake khelo.

School ke memes dekhke apne pending assignments yaad ni aaye, toh yrr yaad krlo aur jake karlo baadme teacher ki daant ki yaad aayegi.

Apne purane school jaake apne purane dosto ki yaad toh aayi hi hogi.

So many memories, a little spark and they open up like sunrise.

I just want to say, once a while, live these memories. Remember what those carry. Remember the happiness or the pain. They are to remind you that you can feel emotions to their fullest. You can be hurt but you came out of it stronger. You were happy with someone and you can be happy with anyone. You were embarrassed then, but you can make worse mistakes to feel even more embarrassment. haha.

All these were screenshotted by our mind to remind us that it all exists.That we go on. We get better. We meet new people. We feel new things. It's life and we lived it like that. Everything happens for a reason and we don't need to know it while we are in the moment.

Whenever you feel down, revisit the happy moments. It can be old photos, old toys, old drawings. It will pass.

Whenever you feel happy, just keep feeling it don't spoil it by thinking of past. But you can feel even happier by remembering the happy moments.

OUTRO:

I spend an hour every week to delete faltu screenshots. Delete toh kuch 10-12 hi hoti hai, time toh sochne mein lagta hai ki delete karu ya na. Thank God mind ki storage full ni hoti, varna pagal hojate :)

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