My school life

INTRO :

My school life ended and yet doesn't have an ending. It's kinda sad, not gonna lie. But remembering this 14-16 year journey might help cope with the feeling of losing out.

My school life was an amusement park. I have changed rides so many times. The starting was always nerve-wrecking yet exciting. The middle is where all the fun was.  The ending was comparatively lukewarm and sometimes I even stumbled. There have been blockbusters like the ferris wheel, merry-go-round, but there have also been some flops. 

When I was in 1st standard, I learnt what failure is. Very big lesson for a very young child. Definitely traumatic. But I'm thankful for myself for not crashing and instead rising even higher. I failed 1st class because I joined school late and then took a long break as my grandmother passed away.

When I went to school the very first day of my 2nd year of 1st class, it was weird. My class teacher didn't believe I'm repeating "1ST CLASS". She went to the office to check while I awkward stood in the corridor. Strangely, on my right was the 2nd class where I saw a few friends that I had known from the past year, and on the left was my same 1st class where I would be studying for the second time. I could hear kids whispering while looking at me. "Who the fuck stands in the corridor!?!!" Lmao

The starting of my school life was crazy. 

The first few years taught me to take opportunities. Through a crowd of several little devils, you have to reach up to what you want. The chaos will terrify you, but you gotta do what you wanna do. 

Changing schools taught me how to make new friends. Never did it teach me how to introduce myself, that shit is still so difficult. But meeting new people introduced me to several different cultures. Showed me that there are people who live the "urban life" but there are also people who live the "rural life". It taught me how to equally appreciate and criticise both. Honestly, just be kind and helpful, you will be accepted everywhere. 

I have so many people I know, remember and maybe admire as well. They are far away and scattered. Letting go of people is easy for me, that's all I've been doing all this time. It doesn't take much, I just keep letting new people enter my life. They don't take the previous ones' places, but they create their own, which, for some reason, feels warmer than the ones before. 

But I'm also thankful to people who have stayed. Even when they are far away from me, they check up on me and make sure they stay connected because I swear to God I can't text first for fuck's sake. I'm so blessed to have them.

Teachers are so inspirational. Mostly we fail to give them the attention and credit that they deserve. It's true that not everyone can become a teacher. A teacher doesn't only teach the bookish syllabus, but more. So many life lessons, so many stories that have shaped me. Some teachers have even inspired me with the way they live. They are such amazing people I look up to. Teachers really are next to mothers.

Yes there are some teachers who are not as great as others, but they are humans too. Cut them some slack, right? 

I was kinda popular in almost every school. The scholar student, teacher's pet. But honestly, I didn't feel like that. I just liked doing things all the time. I can not sit patiently at one place. And if not teachers' work, how else can I go outside? Also, it was my inability to say "NO". I learnt in later years that it's okay to say no. But even tho I was known for this behaviour, I was a fun person. I was never a part of the "Studious kids club". I mean, I always was found talking and playing TDS with my friends while other scholars quizzed each other on their knowledge. I was a mix of both, and trust me, I have no regrets. 

10th class was a rockstar. I hung out with friends, gossiped with teachers, danced around the school, bonded with literally everyone, made memories, bunked classes, takatak between classes in hiding and also maintained to get good marks. Best class of my school life. 

Last 2 years were tough. In 11th, I wasn't mentally doing well. 12th washed away online. Yes there were some fun moments, but overall it was a bummer. 

I don't know if school life really was the best part of my life. I learnt, made mistakes, learnt again. I lived it to the fullest. All sorts of dramas happened, fights with friends, was made fun of, gossiped about, tore a love letter infront of a boy while my teacher looked at me in shock!! lmao that was crazy. 

OUTRO :

Life was fun in school. Life was difficult in school. Hope it will be the same way ahead. Neither happier, nor sadder, just a learning experience, till the day it ends.